Another Sunday...

another day.   My oldest and his girlfriend came over for dinner tonight, it was very nice since my youngest his current girlfriend also joined us.  Felt like the family again, I am adjusting still to the oldest being gone and out on his own.  Anyhow, it's been a busy weekend, bloodbank yesterday and no I didnt' pass out afterwards, even though I probably could have, grocery shopping after that and a movie with my favorite youngest son..lol

Today I was a little sluggish getting up, lots of laundry done and dinner with the kids as mentioned before...so that is my weekend in a snapshot...

Hope you all enjoyed your's as much as I did mine!!

First Weekend

Knowing I am alone and on my own.  What have I done...well I have been productive, blood bank today, hair cut (yes she cut the bangs too short ugh) and grocery shopping.  My youngest and I had some time watch a movie too!  I am not ok right now with being without a special someone but it will do and i am doing it.....Life is not always fair, but we trudge along right!!!

Tonight, well I have been checking on my farm and cafe in facebook.  (Ok, yes I am lame and without direction!!!) but I know that I am ok and doing a little something now and again.  Tomorrow my oldest and his girlfriend are coming for dinner!  Yeah I miss him, but wish him the best with this move!  I know any home cooked meal can be good for them, leftovers going home with them is them is an extra check plus....

I couldn't exercise today because of the blood bank, but I will say I overdid it with the groceries since I was alone and I understand why, tomorrow morning I have a date with some yoga!

Nothing much going on as you see, you have missed nothing...nada...but winter can go away :(

Thursday

I was very tired, but also found a bit of energy to get some things done at home last night, so no blog.  We were expecting a big snowstorm to hit yesterday morning, but it never really happened, for us at least.  It seems that north of me in PA/NJ/NY they are getting slammed.  We are getting snow from this storm but not the 30+ inches they are getting up there!  The winds though on this storm are treacherous.  We have sustained winds of 20-30 mph and the gusts of up to 60mph.  Well put that with the ground which is still covered in places with the 30+ inches we got a few weeks back, plus the soaking rains we endured a bit earlier this week and that wreaks havoc with the older, dying or not deeply rooted trees.  I am fearful of power outages, so far so good.

Tonight the boy and I are doing pizza and a movie, tomorrow I donate blood so I need to keep it light.  I am sure tomorrow afternoon I will be snoozing as it always happens after I donate.  I do this to keep my iron levels in check, they tend to run a bit high!  Four times a year and I am in good shape!

Tuesday coming I get the results of my copolscopy, crossing fingers they are good.  Thursday next week I start the procedure to find out what we are going to do with my right wrist.  I need to get xrays done also because I need to take them with me!  With this weather it hasn't happened so far.  Maybe tonight. 

That is about it for me right now...not really too much going on, just dreaming of spring and summer!! 

Hump day was a bust....

I have tired and very lathargic today...ok that is way too big of word for me...

Anyhow, I managed to eek out work today and still be quite productive, so for that I give myself quite a pat on the back.  I am still dwelling on my phone call last night...errr

But the best news of all.....oh wait are you sitting down!!  we are due for yet another winter storm from tonight through Friday morning...another 12-18" of snow and heavy, wet snow at that!!! Can you say I am so over this, where is summer becuase I know I am!!!  I have no Significant Other (SO) to take care of this for me now, so I will be up way too early tomorrow deciding if I should go to work or not...and with I say it sucks.  I liked having that relationship and no not for the snow shoveling that he did for me over and over and over.....

So I will touch a bit on the other (WLS) I am still the same....I love the maintenance, it seems to be almost a no brainer for me, I have a bad treat now and again and I balance it out with a few more salads, protein shakes or whatever and I am good as gold.  My primary physician said not too long ago you are a bariatric doc's dream patient...you've lost, you are maintaining and seem mostly unharmed from this.  Exactly what that last part meant I am not sure, and not sure I will ever know!!!  lol

Tonight I have finished my taxes!! yeah...it is enabling my son and I to have a half decent vacation with some savings too!! So for that I say SCORE!!!

I would love a snow day tomorrow (I mean sleep day) lol  I am tired and worn, I have laundry  and dishes going so after that I am done tonight....

Ended up catching up with an old friend

Instead of going to the work event.  A girlfriend was going with me to the work event, she called and said she's gotten a flat and will be late, no biggie to me as I didn't even want to go with for starters.  So when she finally gets here to the house, we sit down and just catch up!  I had a much better time than the whole "function" thing.  Will I get in trouble, who knows, who cares and I will deal with that today.  I am so glad for my friends, all of you...without you my world would be empty.

I should be...............

getting ready for this work event....but I am not.  I am procrastinating to the nth degree.  I am not pleased, nor unpleased with my job and that is the problem.  I love what I do, have always loved my position within my company until late last year.  Things changed dramatically.....Why should you ask, well there were issues, underemployment, not enough time in a 24 hr day to get things done...so they brought in a new boss.  Yes....

I don't even want to talk about how degrading and everything else that felt.  So here I am....plugging along at a job I LOVED to say it's ok.

I think there are brighter horizons on my future!  Maybe not here, but somewhere.

Ok, another note, I am disallusioned about breakups.  That to me means clean cut, done, no talk, no more....


Ok, Maybe you have another perception of this....I don't.  Strict, stringent, pigheaded...I don't know..but I am so sore when he calls.  Which is quite frequent now, gleeful, happy like when we dated....WTF happened....seriously, I don't get it.  The latest, tonight, he calls, I am on my way out for three days, TX and NM be home late Sat afternoon.  Ok, give me a pause but doesn't that sound like a conversation with two people who are dating??? I am confused, disallusioned and yes Pissed at the whole scenario....

So with that I do need to get ready to go to the production tonight called work....Absolut Berri Acai, for those whole like vodka it's the newest thing...for me...eh

Maybe I will blog when I get home from the festivities...maybe not...

A busy day....

Tonight is a very busy night for us at work, kickoff time.  We will be introducing yet another flavor of vodka to the vast battalion that is already out there!  Needless to say I am not a vodka drinker, which is very good for me!

Last night was a muriad of chores...changing beds, fixing up the spare bedroom into my craft/tv room, dinner, dishes and just the regular things I get into every night.  Needless to say I found a little time to blog and still get everything else done.  When I finally fell into bed (exhausted) I am finding that I am working myself to the limit of exhaustion everynight so that I do not dwell on the recent breakup :(  I had nightmares for the second night in a row.  Waking up to a feeling that a person is in my room, people without faces or means but just blurring by me.  Not sure what it all means, but in honesty I am person who remembers dreams.  This new thing surely has me wondering on what level of subconscious this is all coming from.  I have a feeling it's the fact that I am not happy with the current circumstances of my life, or the fact that the last breakup ended so badly.  Maybe it's the emotional connection I was able to make with him, that is now gone, so therefore my comfort level being alone is diminished right now.  Who knows!!  But tonight, hopefully I will have a full night of sleep without awaking or remembering my dreams.

Work is neverending busy, winter is hopefully going to fizzle out soon.  I can't say that in my whole life I can recall a snowier winter than we have had this winter.  The weather people said we have officially had the snowiest few storms, the last two on the record books, but our first measurable snow right before Christmas was about 18".  I am counting down the days until we spring forward for daylight savings time and then spring!!   I know I will complain later, but right now if it rained till June I would be happy.  At least this storm we are experiencing now is in the form of rain, but then they are calling for another wintry blast this weekend :(  More snow...UGH!!!

Ok so here is the long winded version of what is going on with me.....

Oct - UTI - 2 of them, the meds couldn't get it so I switched to Cipro which kicked butt but also made me so sick!!!  Blood in urine both times :(  Pap done and it came back abnormal....

Nov - Double ear infection/sinus infection - started around Thanksgiving and well......

Dec - Work was crazy busy, dating was great, sickness was at full steam ahead.  Christmas was ok, NYE not so much (but special) and then winter came...Snow fall and alot the weekend before christmas

Jan - More snow - good god, we had over 35" which is uncalled for in this state!  Still sick, came to a head with an IV antibiotic...Had to have a copolscopy done...ok the first one, ew, the repeat even worse because of being sick I was sick all over and they couldn't biopsy me :(  results coming March 2nd.  For those who don't know that is a in depth measure for cervical cancer :(   Finally on the road to recovery from being sick!

Feb - End of the relationship :(, no valentines day again :(, starting to get ready for the next adventure of getting my wrist fixed.

So needless to say, I haven't been inactive or bored while not blogging just plain old sick!!

The wrist is something I broke last winter.  Not knowing at the time, since I also broke 3 ribs I didn't get it checked out right away and it healed broken.  Late last spring I had it xrayed and they said it's needs to be re-broken and set 8-10 weeks in a cast.   Ok, well this is now May and I did not want to spend my summer in a cast....so here we are....So the ball is rolling, I am starting to figure out what my next step is and truthfully I have no ideas right now. 

Been toying with an idea of moving, maybe starting over fresh somewhere.  Not sure if that is a good idea, or a bad one at the moment, but it's a thought.

Life part II is not what I signed up for right at the moment, but this too shall change!!

This is the start of part two....

I know I told everyone out there, nope I am done, finished, caput....well I was and now I am not.

Isn't it a women's perogative to change her mind? Well I have, my life is nothing like it used to be or will be again. I have gone through so many changes: personal, physical, mental and what I was missing was the outlet to write this down. I have a personal home journal, but my wrist is killing me (ortho appt on my horizon) so I haven't even been doing that.

I don't know where to begin, so we shall just take it from here. I have ended yet another relationship. This time I am devastated as I thought maybe he was the one! What do I say or think....I have no words that can possibly explain how I am feeling right now. I am blessed with great friends who out of the blue (and not so blue) have rescued me from myself this weekend. Without them, I might have been a goner!! No, seriously I am a mess, I feel like I am moving but out of my body, I can't understand this whole deal. I think the worst is he is taking all the blame, but won't talk about it, I can't heal unless I know what happened, but I will heal and move on and so forth!

So we will back up a bit and catch you all up on me: I have spent the better part of Thanksgiving through the end of Jan 2010 sick! I didn't think I was ever going to come out the medicine induced haze that was my life for those months. Christmas was eh....got a great gift, but then again, he is gone now so....New Years Eve, well he made a wonderful dinner for me, we watched movies and the ball drop at midnight...talking about our future. Valentine's Day, well I was rescued by yet another friend who took me out to visit our friends and not let me dwell on what was not going to happen yet again!

My oldest son has officially moved out! He is growing up and becoming such a great young man, and I am so proud of him. My youngest, is happy at school, playing his guitar and enjoying his life. Me, well you can read above! lol I am disappointed to say the least at this turn of events, but I will survive. I am just going to concentrate on me for a bit again!

I have some new pics to put up, but no time right now...I like that I can blog at work again :)

I miss all of my friends out there who have been there for me, and all the ups and downs called my life!