and the answer is, I have to get the whole procedure done again in three months. They weren't able to run it 100% positive, but it was not negative either :( This really upsets the whole coming up months. Around the birthday is when I go back and start again. This is really not how I planned on starting my summer.
On a brighter note, I have joined the softball team of a bunch of old jr high friends. We have our first game April 23rd..yeah. I have gotten back into my yoga routine after the long illness. Already I can say I feel alot better about myself. I have had not quite a great past few weeks, although being ill doesn't qualify as feeling good, I felt really good about myself when I was with him. Although that is over, and I really need to let it go, I am having a harder time than before. The others I could qualify in my head what went wrong and how wrong they were for me, this time it's different and I can't do it, it seems.
Tomorrow is hopefully a rain event, I am so sick of the snow and all the winter and cold we have had this year. I hoping our spring is mild and sunny, although rainy and cooler seems to be the norm. lol
I am going to finish watching The Time Traveler's Wife now, enjoy the evening.
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Tuesday, March 2, 2010
Tuesday, February 23, 2010
A busy day....
Tonight is a very busy night for us at work, kickoff time. We will be introducing yet another flavor of vodka to the vast battalion that is already out there! Needless to say I am not a vodka drinker, which is very good for me!
Last night was a muriad of chores...changing beds, fixing up the spare bedroom into my craft/tv room, dinner, dishes and just the regular things I get into every night. Needless to say I found a little time to blog and still get everything else done. When I finally fell into bed (exhausted) I am finding that I am working myself to the limit of exhaustion everynight so that I do not dwell on the recent breakup :( I had nightmares for the second night in a row. Waking up to a feeling that a person is in my room, people without faces or means but just blurring by me. Not sure what it all means, but in honesty I am person who remembers dreams. This new thing surely has me wondering on what level of subconscious this is all coming from. I have a feeling it's the fact that I am not happy with the current circumstances of my life, or the fact that the last breakup ended so badly. Maybe it's the emotional connection I was able to make with him, that is now gone, so therefore my comfort level being alone is diminished right now. Who knows!! But tonight, hopefully I will have a full night of sleep without awaking or remembering my dreams.
Work is neverending busy, winter is hopefully going to fizzle out soon. I can't say that in my whole life I can recall a snowier winter than we have had this winter. The weather people said we have officially had the snowiest few storms, the last two on the record books, but our first measurable snow right before Christmas was about 18". I am counting down the days until we spring forward for daylight savings time and then spring!! I know I will complain later, but right now if it rained till June I would be happy. At least this storm we are experiencing now is in the form of rain, but then they are calling for another wintry blast this weekend :( More snow...UGH!!!
Last night was a muriad of chores...changing beds, fixing up the spare bedroom into my craft/tv room, dinner, dishes and just the regular things I get into every night. Needless to say I found a little time to blog and still get everything else done. When I finally fell into bed (exhausted) I am finding that I am working myself to the limit of exhaustion everynight so that I do not dwell on the recent breakup :( I had nightmares for the second night in a row. Waking up to a feeling that a person is in my room, people without faces or means but just blurring by me. Not sure what it all means, but in honesty I am person who remembers dreams. This new thing surely has me wondering on what level of subconscious this is all coming from. I have a feeling it's the fact that I am not happy with the current circumstances of my life, or the fact that the last breakup ended so badly. Maybe it's the emotional connection I was able to make with him, that is now gone, so therefore my comfort level being alone is diminished right now. Who knows!! But tonight, hopefully I will have a full night of sleep without awaking or remembering my dreams.
Work is neverending busy, winter is hopefully going to fizzle out soon. I can't say that in my whole life I can recall a snowier winter than we have had this winter. The weather people said we have officially had the snowiest few storms, the last two on the record books, but our first measurable snow right before Christmas was about 18". I am counting down the days until we spring forward for daylight savings time and then spring!! I know I will complain later, but right now if it rained till June I would be happy. At least this storm we are experiencing now is in the form of rain, but then they are calling for another wintry blast this weekend :( More snow...UGH!!!
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